Immediately, Elijah looked embarrassed and could no longer control himself. His hands rubbed together to keep them busy and he looked away.

"Ah. That.. I mean. I gave up looking in the paper. I am almost afraid to check my mail after that article." He wasn't too afraid, he'd travel through hell for a letter from the man who sat before him.

"And I've not met anyone. Though it isn't unusual, I don't go looking. It..." leads to dead ends and heart ache? "Is an empty venture. But I'm alright. I have a friend and I can keep busy with work and people need me. I thought a lot time ago I would end like this so it isn't unexpected." He said looking down a bit shamefully. How dare he ever expect anything else? One priest teased and hurt him without meaning to and the other gave him hope that he shouldn't have had. Elijah knew better and that he was being a fool to even think his luck would change when nothing else had.