He still refused to be honest. She was no fool though and he would be able to see her expression indicating she did not believe him... In fact, her expression went from calm to sad, and then sad to angry. Who was he trying to fool? "If that is what you wish to tell yourself, then far he it for me to stop you... But you are a man. You can do much more than I could regardless. I cannot. I am a woman who is expected to marry and have my child in wedlock as its the proper thing to do. John... Mister Blacke can decide for himself if he wants to stay with this arrangement. In my world, a proper woman marries before children come. In my world, a woman has less choice than a woman who is considered poor, and we have to do everything we can to keep ourselves free of scandal. I cannot be with the person I love most in this world and you very well know it, and I have to do what is proper... Not for my sake, for the baby. He knows I am not in love with him, I barely know him to be able to discern if I love him but with time, I could. I do feel attraction for him or I would never have agreed..." And then she lowered her head into her hands, trying hard not to start crying once again. She had thought she could trust him and was starting to wonder why if he could not be honest where it counted. His baldfaced lie hurt her and she didn't have to tell him, for it was written in her eyes very clearly.